weknowheisblessed

I've been meditating on some particular verse since a few nights ago.

A simple sentence that could prove to be most powerful line ever. A life changing one you might add.


"The same power that conquers the grave, lives in me".


Even if the world fades away
Even if my world seems like never ending way
Even if the world turn its back on me
I know that You are here.

Everyday its a brand new day to live and start with
A day with its own challenge and fears
the anxiety of not being able to do what your heart wants.
and the phobia of not completing them.


But a solution came and gave it all.
That my friend, is true love.
Its just a word. or rather, a name.

Jesus.


I rest my case. I am proud to be here.

Like how an honourable man does it. I'm gonna do it well,

And sometimes, we tend to wonder on and on and on.
Just like how the world is round.


Hah. Oh well.

Sometimes, when you chance upon a blog or so, it brings back a lot of memories. Trust me, most of the time when such an occasion arises, the happier memories would often flood the unhappy ones, so much so that you would just "bring" yourself back to the old days again. Daydream, you might add.


But of such findings, some of which just makes you feel kinda emotional too. Maybe it's because of the words that was once said before. "I'll be fine. You take care". Words ain't exactly word for word, but it's something
along that line.


Indeed I took care. I took care of myself so much so that I can say that life's been rather fulfilling and amazing for me ever since then. Awesome people along the way, interesting events took place. Many other stuff too. The latter part of that sentence does indeed came true.


But the first part ain't coming true no more.


It sometimes makes you feel down and emotional when you see that the first part of the sentence ain't coming true. It affects you even more when you know that there's nothing you can do about it. Oh well. Sometimes, it just makes you feel helpless.

And Nobody likes the helpless feeling. Hah.


OH well. Just something to rant about.

I guess sometimes, emotions does indeed get the better of one. Similar experiences faced could all end up in a turmoil. No one knows how or when it happened. Okay, maybe one do know when it happened but certainly not how.

But when it happens, most of the time, it just controls you and make you do things that you don't necessary wanna do at that point of time. It affects you from head to toe, even affecting others too. I guess that's how the style, 'Emo', came about? When one is emotional, it's all about hiding yourself away from everything, no?

That's why black colour. There'll never be sunlight.


Oh well.

I somehow feel that I belong in a better place.

Where respect would occur, where reasonable explainations and words can be expressed and shared.

Where at least, for the very least, without any condemnation that how it never seems to fade away.


Oh well. 20 years. I am used to it....... I think.

I somehow can't get enough of you.

Just thought that I had to add something. Denial. What a word to use right. Lets just exactly find out what in the blue heaven is the word, Denial. Not that I don't know the meaning, but for the benefit of the world and everyone who reads this, lets just do that.


Dictionary.com Unabridged (v 1.1) - Cite This Source - Share This de·ni·al   <a href="http://dictionary.reference.com/audio.html/lunaWAV/D01/D0175500" target="_blank"><img src="http://cache.lexico.com/g/d/speaker.gif" border="0" /></a>     /dɪˈnaɪəl/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[di-nahy-uhl] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

1.	an assertion that something said, believed, alleged, etc., is false: Despite his denials, we knew he had taken the purse. The politician issued a denial of his opponent's charges.

2.	refusal to believe a doctrine, theory, or the like.

3.	disbelief in the existence or reality of a thing.

4.	the refusal to satisfy a claim, request, desire, etc., or the refusal of a person making it.

5.	refusal to recognize or acknowledge; a disowning or disavowal: the traitor's denial of his country; Peter's denial of Christ.

6.	Law. refusal to acknowledge the validity of a claim, suit, or the like; a plea that denies allegations of fact in an adversary's plea: Although she sued for libel, he entered a general denial.

7.	sacrifice of one's own wants or needs; self-denial.

8.	Psychology. an unconscious defense mechanism used to reduce anxiety by denying thoughts, feelings, or facts that are consciously intolerable.

So All that is the meaning of Denial.

Lets just see, from the first meaning up there.

"An assertion that something said, believed or alleged is false."


I guess base on that, it probably means denying the fact about things that are right in life. A refusal to believe and accept things that have already proven themselves in life.


Lets see other meanings behind it.


"Disbelief in the existence or reality of things"


Isn't that the same meaning as the one above too?


So basically, you guys more or less know what the word 'Denial' means now. Awesome.

Just a random thought.


If you think this entry speaks to you, I'm glad for you. If you think this entry is pointless, then I'm sorry to say, Yeah.

Oh and I always believe that such a word should never be used against people. It's a harsh word to say, and it leaves people hanging on by a thread, thinking and pondering bout it. So, even if such a word is used, how sure are you that, YOU yourself ain't living in a denial, telling others about their denial process?

Welcome on board to life, pal. Here's something for everyone to absorb.

A man of honour and a man of integrity is someone who isn't afraid to admit their wrongs if necessary, and is someone who isn't afraid to apologise and make amends for their wrongdoings.

That's a true man.


Go think about it, Men.
 

Here I Am, All the way from Japan. ;)

The reason why Im here blogging and not on msn is because of a few reasons. I seriously wonder how does the Japs survive without these important keys in the keyboard! I cant seem to type underscore, which is crucial since my EMAIL ADD has underscore in it! Or even if they do have that key, its so ridiculously hard to insert it down! ive been trying to type that down since forever but to no avail. Oh well.

So i cant use msn. Argh. ):

But oh well. The day today was pretty damm tiring, despite the long hrs of rest. Its kinda like the first day and i`m kinda missing some people alr. hah. Miss talking to a person online, the usual nonsensical stuff that we would say and the usual laughters and words that will be said, and it`ll leave me smiling like an idiot in the room. hah. Oh well.

Thank God for the books, Twilight and its counterpart,which i haven started yet. It really played a huge role with me here in Japan. (:


Will update a proper day1 entry when i have a better computer in the next hotel. Till then, folks, ;)

p.s. i did miss you, tiny. (; HAH. bet everyone`s gonna be wondering who.

I wonder and I wonder on.
It will all be good in the end, right?

I suppose so.


But even if it doesn't, there's nothing I can do about it too, I figured.


Hah. Oh well.


It will be good. Cos I commanded it to be.

It is often said that, a holiday is a perfect escape for individuals to break away from their usual problemetic world, the world where there's full of issues and challenges each day, to a place where one would just get to relax and enjoy the place, to its maximum potential.

A holiday is definitely something that's listed above. it is. I can't doubt it. Being in a foreign land would definitely provide it's own exhilarating experience where one would probably experience it once in the lifetime. Whether it's the shopping, or the tourist attraction, or even the food, it's all gonna play a huge role in widening our perspective about the world.



And so, I'm leaving Japan in a day or so. A holiday at long last. A holiday that brings me to a place where so many others would love to go in my place. Honestly, when I first hear the news about it, I was rejoicing and I couldn't wait for it to take place. I even prepared myself by learning some basic Japanese, and I even wrote down some key japanese words, for the standby process.

A holiday at japan is definitely ideal for a week. 7 days. Perfect? You'd bet. It is indeed gonna be a good good holiday.


But that leaves me thinking, 7 days isn't quite long. But 7 days isn't quite short either! Hah.

The kinda feeling where you just don't feel like going japan suddenly. The kind where you just wish to stay in Singapore, to further develop things that had been going on lately ; something like a comfort zone.

To further enjoy the whole idea of staying in Singapore till NS days. But, I soon realised that it really isn't all that. It is about the really awesome people, whom I have the privilege to know and to hang around with, here in Singapore. From the people whom I've grown up with, till the one I went out with yesterday. Hah. Oh well. Enough said. 
 
7 days ain't that short, but it ain't that long either.


Till the day I'm back, Play and study hard, folks! ;)

Hah. Nothing beats having a Saturday that's so chilled and relaxed. Though plan A didn't really work out, the alternative plan of just random walking and catching a show together before that was splendid! Though 'Every boys love Mandy' is just dumb, I still enjoy the show. :)

Maybe it's the company. HAH.

Oh well.


Sunday!

When was the last time, you actually sit back and just give in to others, despite their nonsensical demands and requirements? I bet you can't remember.

Not that giving in to such ridiculous demands are healthy, but yeah. I always believe in life that, there are moments where you really just receive and receive. But on the other hand, there are moments where you give too. Be it time, money, whatever, YOU give.

And when I say you give, it doesn't mean giving to somebody, and then for the rest of the day, you have the blackest face on planet earth that even charcoal couldn't match up to your blackness.

We learn to give because we were all first given by the One above. :)


It's just like how we sow, and we will reap. No farmer in the world would sow a seed, not expecting a reap in the near future. That's just plain dumb.


Oh well. Just some thoughts ;)

The days ahead seems neverending. Indeed it appears neverending, but we all know that someday in the future, it will come to a complete halt. No more movement whatsoever. Nothing else to run along. The day where you'll be heading back home to where you truely belong.

Along that 'neverending' journey called life, comes many obstacles and challenges to conquer. One must wonder why these challenges or obstacles always seem to be a step higher than the other, when life progresses. Some form of a law there? Perhaps. A law that's unbreakable and unshakeable. A set of code that has been happening in everyone's life since the day Adam and Eve were born.



Some of which are pretty interesting. Some are just plain dumb to even be in. Some are just challenging. The kind where it makes you sit back and think. Think about how and where to head to. From where and when do we move ahead. The kinda thoughts that sprinkles through that brain of ours. We were told that we only use a very limited tiny amount of brain cells in life. I wonder where did the rest of it go. The irony of being the smartest creature of them all.

And when one wrong step is made, everything else seems to fall apart. Or rather, you think that everything else seems to fall apart. The world is shattering and you are gonna die. But the next day arrives and you're still having bacon and eggs by the side. Where did that world shattering issue been to? Only God knows where it'd been.


The life of ours entwins around mistakes and failures. Not that we belong to such category but living on Earth is simply like that. Of cos, we belong to the victory ground which most of us stand. A familiar territory where one gets to enjoy life to the fullest and the max. They often say that victory comes from failures. But I see no link at all when we are already on victory ground. We fight from victory, never for it. The wrong perceptions ruins everything. Shatters the dreams and visions. Demoralised the soul and body.

And what happen next?

Foolish and stupid things occured. Things that can be totally avoided chose to surface and that life is deemed finished. But then again, what is a finished life? A life is never finished as long as the heart is still beating. Picture a toddler learning how to walk. Imagine his first fall and he gives up learning how to walk forever, choosing to be lame for the rest of his/her life. Quite a stupid sight you must add? Indeed. It's the exacy same concept as life.


And then comes love. A 4 letter word that conquers and totally swallowed the lives of many young people out there. How so? Isn't love something awesome to happen, as said by others? Very very true. Love is awesome. Love is amazing. Love is a person. That's love. Then how so does it kills? It kills because people think that they know love and they try to conquer love, in search for that thrill and passion. Well, okay some, for that true love. But game over and plan backfired. Got burned real bad and it all looks like is sucidal. One failed relationship means the end of the world. Imagine having that mindset growing up. What a sad story.

But love is a good thing. Love is an amazing thing. Love is the world's greatest feat. if it's at the right time and moment. Patience is the key, and the key will eventually find that keyhole to slot in.


No one said living on Earth was gonna be easy. No one did. And if someone did tell you, he/she is probably trying to comfort themselves. Because my friend, life on Earth isn't gonna be easy. But one thing I can assure you of, and that's the journey of life, though it ain't easy, it's gonna be the very best thing that can ever happen to you. Because simply, it's a life. What can beat being more precious and valuable than a life?

I would say Love. Because true love only occurs when someone is willing to die for you. That;s true love.


And I'm glad my Saviour did.



I rest. :-)

Sometimes, the familiar feeling which you onced experience haunts you down deep inside.
Consumes you from the inside out for awhile
before realising that it can never truely consume you.


And so, I pen it all down in a song. Hah. If only Livejournal allows recording I might just sing out loud and record down my song. :]

Some days are just tougher to past by than others. Some days offers more smiles and joy than others.

Indeed the world is round. Maybe that's the very reason why things of the world will always be of the same cycle.

I seek my rest on my bed.

Sometimes, a perception is all it takes to ruin it all. A wrong angle of looking at things could just cause you one whole load of an issue to crack open again. A wrong judgement of things might just burst all the emotions out and just rain upon yourself.

One can judge by seeing certain things on certain areas. But surely after the countless and priceless things that was said and met, surely it meant something too? Unless one really wasn't listening but agreeing.

It's just like, a man who often treats another person a cup of coffee whenever the other person needs one. Day after day, it happened. Surely when day 132 come, the other person would not think that the cup of coffee has poison in it right. And for no reason at all, like out of the blue?

I would love to add on saying that perceptions sometimes really kills you from the inside out. No amount of explaination of reasons would matter at that point of time, because at the end of the day, it doesn't really matter much because nothing will be absorbed. Nothing. Even if the words were diabetes-ly sweet and encouraging, it still doesn't get the message across because, simply because of a wrong perception already otherwise.

point is, things may seem to be that way but how the heck do one even know so? After all the words and stuff and advices, It's just plain dumb to fall into the cycle that was onced talked about! And even if its dumb enough to do so, the worst thing that could ever happen is in the face of the other, or rather, for the public. And No one is dumb enough for that to happen.

Ain't no immortal to tell people how to live their lifes man. Heck, I can't even settle my own life at times, how the heck do I still wanna engrossed myself with people's life and issues. I am a human too. I have emotions and feelings too. I experience daily issues like everyone else too. But does anyone notice anything different? I don't go all down and sad just because of that. Life's too short for all of that. We're all born kings and priests for a reason. We're suppose to reign over these issues.

Clearly and surely, I believe that non of my anything got to anyone. Maybe everyone's just taking it for granted, taking it as though its something soothing to the ear, giving you life and encouragement. Because at the end of the day, things are just not the way it seem suppose to be, and its just sad to see the whole cycle again. But then again, like what I've said, who am i to even care and tell others how to live their life. Who am i.


Certainly because, I'm a friend and I value friendships just like how God value us all.God created friendships for a purpose. If I could help with advices and experiences, I say why not?

But whether or not one actually listens to them, it's a whole new another story all together.

But it doesn't really matter now. Oh well.


- My path of life.

It's times like this where you just hope that tomorrow will just come in a blink of an eye.
It's times like this where you just wanna lie down on the bed, and fall asleep the moment you're on it.
It's times like this where you just want to have a cold starbucks beverage by your side, and an awesome book by the other.



it's times like this where I'll learn to just learn to rest.
Nod head*